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.: Avoiding The Holes :. posted 04.05.23.
	i tend to forget how much certain triggers can affect me. or like. i underestimate it. i go, "oh, well, i should be used to this sort of rhetoric, i can handle it, im stable!' but. um. ~2decades of bu... (read full post...)
.: Repetition, Repetition, Repetition... :. posted 04.03.23.
	today i felt very tired. i took a shower, which meant the rest of the day was spent recovering from the very same shower. (friends tell me this isnt normal. and this is probably a POTS thing? idk.) t... (read full post...)
.: Drawing From Life :. posted 03.31.23.
	today i woke up a bit late - 12:30pm or so - but felt better than usual since dad installed a humidifier yesterday morning, which meant my mouth wasn't as dry. i saw my dad bring it in, and i said, 'o... (read full post...)
.: Daffodils and Fig Leaves :. posted 03.25.23.
	after a nightmare of a wildfire and separation from family, i found myself washing dishes in the kitchen this morning. the weather is fair today. somewhat cloudy, just the puffy ones that come with th... (read full post...)
.: Self Advocacy and Life Quality :. posted 03.24.23.
	not another post about my doctor misadventures!! see, growing up fat and bullied, i've had a long, long time to work through my personal issues & like, generally stand up for myself more in a lot... (read full post...)
.: Thoughts On Doctors And Self Advocacy :. posted 03.14.23.
	man... just thinking about a recent incident with a doctor. i went in to talk about my chest pains and other symptoms. i showed the doctor my logs and she barely glanced at them, saying that it was... (read full post...)
.: Strike The Earth! :. posted 02.27.23.
	greetings or something, bro im so tired i went to bed at 3am and woke up FIVE TIMES until i just got up at 9. then i napped from 2 to 4. my god. no rest for the forest played dwarf fortress. got salam... (read full post...)
.: And The Ultimate Bloging Begins :. posted 02.27.23.
	umm.... haiii i found this script and thought it looked neat and maybe a journal would be easier to keep in computer format? lol i custom-added the status box above so it can feel a bit more... (read full post...)