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ive been too tired lately to do much art or do anything particularly creative. mostly i have been spending time with friends or playing new games. drawing tends to be a struggle because i can't draw in a comfortable way...

drawing with my display tablet tends to hurt whether i have it on its stand (strain on my arm) or if i lie it flat (strain on my back and neck). ive tried using it in pen display mode, but it feels too weird and i don't like it that much. i wonder if a different stand would be viable, since mine is pretty small and not built for my tablet specifically. but i don't really know where i'd get an affordable one.

drawing traditionally has been nice but is also difficult because of my weak grip strength, having to sharpen pencils (often taking multiple attempts where the tip keeps breaking off when i sharpen it!!!), or having to handle a larger sketchbook (the empty ones i have left are empty because of how huge and unwieldy they are).

drawing with my mouse is more comfortable but harder to draw clean lines and generally only looks good if i do, like, vector art, or collage art, or stuff like those where refined input is easier to manage in blocks or points on a line.

it's a little maddening, to be honest. i don't know what exactly i should be doing about it, or what i can do about it that i haven't tried already. i would love love love a better stand for my tablet just in case that might help. the one i have is maybe 5in x 5in (and folds out for support) but the notches it has are pretty polarizing for me (either too steep or too shallow) and it tends to be fairly unstable.

le sigh. time marches on and i will continue to do whatever feels the most comfortable for me in the moment. but it really has been hindering my inclination to actually make things.

outside of that, i've been OK ish. some nausea and pain at like a 4-5 on the pain scale daily but that's my average. my chair is breaking down and it's expensive to get one that's got a longer back, but i really want one. my hip pain has become sharper more frequently because of the aforementioned crap chair quality, but i have been trying to offset it by laying on my bed occasionally, doing leg stretches i learned in phys therapy a year or two ago, and sitting in other places in the house.

i have been doing lots of gaming in the last while. retroachievements is having a gamecube set rollout event, so i've been playing a lot of games i generally wouldn't, like doshin the giant, or barnyard, or radirgy generic. i mastered the first two there but not the last because it's a bullet hell and i am not good at them. that said, i really have enjoyed radirgy. it's really fun and feels rewarding when i get farther and farther. i feel like i am actually learning how to get good.

that's most of what i've been up to. i found out i really like being a dog. that's not new really i guess but it's nice to be acknowledged as a dog in friend circles. i've been learning more and understanding others more and networking more. i don't feel like i am stuck in place, but i feel like i am missing something important. what can you do?